My husband and I are celebrating ten years of marriage this June! I married Josh just a few months after I turned 18 and even though I felt like I was way more mature than all of the other 18 year olds I knew at the time, I still had a lot of growing up to do. My M.O. the first few years of marriage was being a poor communicator. Josh would notice something was bothering me and ask me what was wrong and I would always answer with a short, “Nothing. I’m fine.”, even though something was bothering me and I wasn’t fine. I would go about the rest of the day with my bad or sad or whatever kind of attitude I had that Josh was picking up on, and continue to say that I was okay every time he asked if I was, until finally, hours later, usually after an argument, I would say what was really going on.
I could have enjoyed a lot more days and prevented a lot more arguments if I would have just shared what was on my mind as soon as Josh asked me. I’m glad I finally figured that one out.
In Nehemiah chapter two Nehemiah is at work one day when his boss notices he’s got a long face. Nehemiah didn’t have just any job with just any boss, he was a cup bearer to the King. It had been four months since Nehemiah heard the devastating news about the state of the city of Jerusalem and he still hadn’t gotten over it. During the time Nehemiah was cup bearer people were not allowed to be sad in the presence of the King. King’s figured they were pretty much awesome, and if you were in their presence then why should you have any reason to be moping around? Sadness was not permitted, it was a punishable offense, which Nehemiah was aware of.
Nehemiah 2:2-3 So the king asked me, “Why are you looking so sad? You don’t look sick to me. You must be deeply troubled.” Then I was terrified, but I replied, “Long live the king! How can I not be sad? For the city where my ancestors are buried is in ruins, and the gates have been destroyed by fire.”
Nehemiah was terrified because he knew he could face punishment for being sad in the presence of the King, but instead of just short answering his boss with “Oh, I’m fine. I just had something in my eye.” He tells the truth. He lets the King know what was going on inside that head of his and instead of firing Nehemiah or calling the guards in to take him away, the king says this: “Well, how can I help you?”
Nehemiah must have been so overjoyed with his decision to be honest! He let the king know how he could help, and he played a major part in Nehemiah rebuilding the walls of Jerusalem. I don’t know if Nehemiah could have done it without him. It was totally God that he shared what was really going on in his life that day at the office.
Sometimes we revert back to those old rules of not being allowed to be sad in the presence of the King. We think if we were to let God know what was really on our hearts, that He might get upset and punish us. He’s not that kind of a King. He’s the kind of king that notices when you have a long face and even though He already knows why, He wants you to talk to Him about it. He wants you to be honest with Him.
If you wake up and something is weighing heavy on your heart let your King know. He wants to help you and is completely equipped to do so, whatever the case may be. There is no thing you can tell Him about that will stump Him. He’s got the answers for everything. Don’t let your M.O. with God be that you are a bad communicator. Don’t pretend to be fine when there really is something bothering you. There is no since in carrying that around with you all day, all week, or for the rest of your life, get it off of your chest and into the hands of the King who has the power to make it better.
- Really enjoying Nehemiah!
- My King wants me to tell Him what’s on my mind- good or bad, happy or sad.
- Nothing I’ve ever faced or will ever face in the future can stump God.
- My M.O. is no longer being a poor communicator.
- June is here!!
- Honey Nut Cheerios and strawberries.
- Had time to go swim suit and floatation device shopping before church this morning.
- Found a cute maternity swimsuit.
- Puddle Jumpers life jacket. Perfect for Beau this year.
- Got to teach the four year olds at church the story of the prodigal son and how God loves them always and forever no matter what!
- Someone at church told me how much they enjoy watching Josh with our kids. She said she loves to see how loving he is to them and how excited they are every time they see him. He’s a great dad!!
- Our neighborhood pool. It’s not fancy, but the kids love it!
- It was beautiful out. I didn’t have to get in to not be miserable.
- Beau took right to the water. She was like a little fish and cried when it was time to go home. She’s going to have such a fun summer.
- Gus had a great time jumping in the water, racing against a new friend, and catching toy fish with his net. He smiled the whole time we were there.
- Beau was pretending she was Ariel and daddy was Sebastian.
- Josh got in the freezing cold water so I didn’t have to.
- The way everyone smells after swimming. Sunscreen and chlorine.
- Beau’s BIG swim burps.
- Leftovers for dinner.
- Braum’s for dessert!
- New season of The Next Food Network Star. Love that show!
- Big Mo. The huge cup my mom used to take to work and let us drink watered down Dr Pepper from when she got home. Some how we ended up with it at our house and it’s Josh’s cup now. I’m glad it stayed in the family.
- Beau knows her new memory verse already! With God nothing is impossible!
- Beau saying “gitchy gitchy goo” to her little brother or sister in my tummy!
- Davy Crockett Saves The World. Such a fun book to read to Gus.
- Great long talk with Josh tonight. I love long talks.