Day 300

The city or town that you were raised in always holds a special place in your heart.  I was born in Tulsa Oklahoma.  I met my husband in Tulsa.  I got married in Tulsa.  I had my first son in Tulsa.  The first house we owned was in Tulsa.  We moved to North Dallas about three and half years ago, but to me, Tulsa will always be home.  If I were to find out one day that Tulsa wasn’t doing so great and it might be wiped off the face of the earth in a few years, it would be heartbreaking.

When Nehemiah received news of the condition of Jerusalem, the land that was promised to God’s people, he was heartbroken.  He resided in Persia, but his heart was in Jerusalem.  He knew the city was important to God, so it was important to Him.  It grieved him to hear that her walls had been broken down and her gates destroyed by fire.  He sat down and mourned for Jerusalem for about an hour and then he went on his way, realizing he was just one man and there was no way he could do anything to help the city that he loved.

No, actually he sat down and wept and mourned for DAYS!  He fasted and prayed constantly before the God of Heaven.  During that time, God was doing something in his heart, something that would change Jerusalem forever.  The days Nehemiah spent mourning were crucial to the assignment God would give him to rebuild the walls.

When heartbreaking things happen we tend to want to get over them as soon as possible, but whenever we force ourselves to “dry up” and get over it instead of taking the proper amount of time to mourn, we may miss out on God doing something life changing in our hearts.

It’s okay to mourn and it’s okay to mourn for more than a day… Nehemiah mourned for DAYS, but he didn’t just cry and feel sorry for God’s favorite city, He cried and He prayed.  He had very real conversations with the Lord.  He didn’t mourn alone, He mourned with God and God showed him how he could help.

What would the world look like if people actually took time to mourn with God instead of trying to get over grief asap?  What would the world look like if we all slowed down and let God work on our hearts about the things that sadden us?  What if we all grieved like Nehemiah grieved?

You are just one person same as Nehemiah was just one person, but God can use you to influence more lives than you can imagine.

I grieved with God for about a month after the loss of our son Felix, and during that month God began to speak to me about writing this blog.  I was nervous about it.  I didn’t even mention it to my husband Josh, because I wasn’t sure if I was actually going to do it.  One night while he was out of town I decided to sit down and write and just see what happened… my first post seemed to magically come together.  I knew it was exactly what God had been asking me to do, so the next morning I shared it on Facebook.  300 days later and I can’t believe all that God has done through me.  23,000 views, countless e-mails from women who have lost babies that have been encouraged by it and a desire in my heart to share it with even more people in the form of a book.

It was while I was grieving God stirred my heart to write.  Don’t rush to get out grief instead grieve with God and let him do something great in you.

Any great work of God begins with God doing a great work in somebody. – David Guzik

  1. God doesn’t expect you to get over your grief a.s.a.p.
  2. If you mourn with God He  can do something great in your heart.
  3. He turns mourning into dancing.
  4. One person can influence many persons.
  5. I grieved with God and during that process He gave me the idea for 10kreasons.
  6. 300 days of writing and learning and going deeper with God.
  7. Over 23,000 views on 10kreasons.
  8. The women who have taken time to e-mail me their stories and let me know that they are being ministered to by the blog.
  9. T-town!  Tulsa will always have a special place in my heart.
  10. Bills paid.
  11. Yummy leftover pizza from Mellow Mushroom.
  12. Beau brought me her kid’s Bible and let me read the whole thing to her this morning.
  13. Beau’s so cute with her flower clips in her hair.
  14. Gus has been very responsible with his Nintendo D.S.  He always puts it back in it’s spot when he is finished playing and makes sure it’s being charged for the next day.
  15. Kids are old enough that I can put on a show for them, tell them not to answer the door, and go take a shower.
  16. Worship tonight at Gateway Frisco was so powerful.  Happy to have Amber back!
  17. Pastor Robert is back!!!  So glad he’s feeling better!
  18. Awesome message on honoring and loving the physical body that God has given us.
  19. Pastor Robert is not prideful.  He shared so openly about the things God has been dealing with him about and I know what he shared will help many people.
  20. Lots of people getting baptized in the rain tonight!
  21. Yummy green chile chicken enchilada casserole tonight for dinner.
  22. Beau asked for seconds!
  23. I’m not sure how it’s possible, but Beau seems to be getting cuter every single day.  She is such a perfect little girl.
  24. My sweet friend Julie is celebrating her birthday today.  Awesome mom, wife, friend, and follower of Christ.  The kind of person that challenges you every time you get around her.
  25. Online shopping!
  26. Finally found some cute maternity dresses for church.
  27. A few minutes after I tucked Gus in I heard him crying I went to check on him and when I asked him why he was crying he said, “I never want to grow up.  I want to be a little boy forever so I can always live with you and dad.”  I told him he’s welcome to stay with us for as long as he wants!  Sweet boy!

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