Day 88

Every once in awhile it hits me… I’m supposed to be big and pregnant right now.  I’m supposed to be nesting and getting ready to welcome a sweet son into the world.  This morning at 5 a.m. was one of those once in a whiles.  I heard Beau crying in her monitor, I went to cover her up and patted her for a few minutes until she fell asleep and then I got back in bed.  I was wide awake and thinking about how it was November.  The month our baby was due.  When we delivered him still on July 7th my heart felt so empty, but I couldn’t believe how empty my arms felt.  It must have been motherly instincts kicking in.  I just wanted to hold something in my arms so badly.  I chose not to see or hold our son because I had an image in my head of a sweet, beautiful boy that I didn’t want to take the chance of replacing with another image.  Driving home from the hospital the empty arm feeling was really intense.  I remember holding my arms close to my chest trying to get it to go away.  After pulling over in an old Albertsons parking lot and sobbing for a while I was ready to go home.  As soon as I hugged my four year old that empty arm feeling went away.  It just felt good to have a little child in my arms.

That same empty arm feeling came around this morning when I was lying awake in bed and I felt like God told me to look up the word “arms” in the Bible so I did.

Mark 10:16 (NKJV) And He took them up in His arms, laid His hands on them, and blessed them.

“Them” is referring to the little children that were brought to Him, that He might touch them.  The little children that the disciples tried to shoo away.  Jesus took those little children up in his arms.

“Up in His arms” is one phrase in the Greek.  It means to take into the arms, embrace.  It’s taken from the root word agkos, which means to curve the inner angle of the arm, the bent arm.  I think that may be one of the sweetest verses in the Bible.  Jesus didn’t just lay hands on these children and babies.  They weren’t just sitting on his knee like a child sits on Santa’s knee.  He took them up in His arms, held them to his chest, and cradled the little infants in His curve on his bent arm.

The Bible only uses this phrase “Up in His arms” in one other place.  In Mark 9:36 He takes another child in His arms, hugs him, and tells the disciples that whoever receives a child in His name, receives Him.

Jesus taking children up in His arms was prophesied about Him in Isaiah 40:11 He will feed His flock like a shepherd; He will gather the lambs (the little sheep) with His arm, and carry them in His bosom… 

I felt so comforted this morning thinking of Felix being in the bent arm of Jesus.  Somehow my arms felt less empty knowing that Jesus’ arms are not.  That feeling of comfort reminded me that at 27, I’m not considered a child on earth anymore, but I am and always will be a child of God and He has me cradled in the curve of His bent arm.

Deuteronomy 33:27 God lives forever! You can run to him for safety.  His powerful arms are always there to carry you.

  1. Leaning On The Everlasting Arms.  I love this version from the movie True Grit and the images of Jesus embracing little children in the video are so sweet.
  2. Jesus knows just how my heart aches and how to make it feel better.
  3. Strong’s concordance.  I love being able to dig deeper into the words written in the Bible.
  4. Felix is in the arms of Jesus.
  5. I am in the arms of God.
  6. Gus told me he didn’t want to go to school today because he loves me too much.
  7. He had a great “all green” day at school.
  8. Josh stayed home with Beau this morning so I could go to the grocery store.
  9. Much needed alone time… I’ll take it, even if it’s just a relaxing trip to Target.
  10. I got to look at the greeting cards for as long as I wanted to.
  11. Found Gus 3 awesome costumes 50% off.  They will make great Christmas gifts!
  12. Pantry and fridge are full.
  13. Getting ahead on my work stuff, so I won’t have a lot to make up when we get back from vacation.
  14. Found some pretty purple flowers for Beau at Target.  They seemed to brighten her day.
  15. Beau was fever free all day!
  16. Got to get her out of the house.  I think she was getting stir crazy.
  17. She ate food for the first time in days!  I should have know to take her to Taco Bueno first thing.
  18. Taco Bueno.  This is another one of those restaurants that will make my list every time I get to eat there.
  19. Beau smiled, laughed, and even wanted to play a little this evening.
  20. Gus finished his sticker chart and earned a new Lego Batman Dictionary.  He loves it!
  21. One of the dad’s of a five year old I have in class at church told me his son was praying the other night and prayed the memory verse he has been learning in class.  That is awesome!
  22. Relaxing bath.
  23. Got to listen to an awesome message on End Times by Craig Groeschel.
  24. Maranatha!
  25. It’s November!  This will be a good month!
  26. Owen Wilson’s character in Meet The Parents.  Hilarious.
  27. Josh put together an amazing library of old Disney cartoons for the kids to watch on the airplane.
  28. Got to help Josh get tons of product done for Ken Blount Ministries so tomorrow we can Sabbath!

One thought on “Day 88

  1. Marilyn Newsom says:

    Your blog today was very real to me. I could see you there feeling your loss of Felix. I wish I could be there to hold you and comfort you. It is a blessing to know that Jesus loves us and cares for us the way he does. Love you so much and I know that Felix is being comforted the way you saw Jesus comfort the children the Bible.

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